Monthly Archives: August 2013

#ThrowbackThursday…The Goal

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I was scrolling through Facebook the other night and ran across these two photos. So since it’s throwback Thursday, I thought I’d share.

That's an active gal 4/20/11

4/20/11

5/11/11 I love this blurry pic

5/11/11

Man, I don’t even recognize this girl. But it’s me. I buried her under the 60 pounds I gained since then. It’s really astonishing how different I looked just over two years ago. I only wish I saw this image in the mirror today. But I’m just going to look harder because I believe she’s there and she’s begging me to let her out. She says she can’t hide in there anymore. So I have to set her free.

From now on these will be my motivation pictures. They will be on my refrigerator and on my phone so I can have access to them at all times. When the urge comes for an extra serving, a calorie rich desert, or when I just won’t get off my butt and work out I can look at this and see where I want to be. No… where I need to be.

THIS IS MY GOAL. I want to get here and this time not stop there but improve on that. That is what 219 looks like, but this time I’m going south of 200. How far??? We’ll see when we get there.

I’m on my way… Care to join?

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Changes

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I’m pleased to say that I’ve lost 5 pounds since I was supposed to post my last weigh in two weeks ago! That’s some really good news. I was weighing in at 279.4, but this morning I hopped on the scale and was down to 274.4. That’s still a huge number that I’m not quite comfortable with but at least it’s going in the right direction.

For the past year I’ve been pretty much ignoring my weight and letting it spiral out of control. I have felt guilty for not stepping on the scale because I didn’t want to face reality. My clothes were getting tighter and tighter and my energy level was only getting lower. I didn’t know my exact weight, but I knew it wasn’t going to be pretty. I thought that I do a lot of walking on my job and cutting grass every week would be all the exercise I needed. But clearly I was wrong.

Now that I have to make some pretty big adjustments in my life I thought it would be a great time to add some exercise and healthy eating to the mix. I have to make time for school because I have been accepted to the Professional MBA program at LSU and I couldn’t be more excited.

I will be going to school after work Monday and Tuesday evenings from 6-9:15, so I’m not even going to try to act like I’ll be doing any exercise on those days. But I can try to eat healthier breakfasts and lunches. We are served a full three course meal each day before class. Whose idea was it to feed us before a 3 hour evening class? I think they are just asking to put us to sleep, so that’s another reason I try to take a light serving of the carbs and steer clear of the sweets. The past few evenings I’ve caved in to bread twice and have avoided dessert. But these meals are usually pretty heavy so I try to make sure that at least half of my plate is covered with vegetables or salad. I don’t plan to skimp dessert every single time, but I think it’s a good practice to start.

My hope is that adding school and everything that comes along with it will make me plan better and map out specific times to exercise. The goal is two workouts per week not including walking to do inspections during work or cutting grass. That should be a good start to my recommitment.

I’m super excited about school so I hope some of this excited/nervous energy can make me get my butt up and do some exercise. My fingers are crossed. And I can’t forget… GEAUX TIGERS!!!

8.22.13

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It’s my anniversary! I started this blog by posting, My official declaration on August 22, 2011. Man, I remember all the emotions I was feeling as I typed that post up in my hotel room in Monroe, Louisiana. And funny enough two years later I’m posting again from a hotel in Monroe, Louisiana.

As I look back on the last two years of my life, I realize they have been filled with life altering events, many firsts, lots of emotion, love and heartbreak. I’ve come a long way and done so much. If you would have told me two years ago that I’d be sitting in a hotel and as heavy as I am today I wouldn’t believe you. Even though I let myself gain the weight, I think that I am such a stronger person than I was 730 days ago. I know that I can turn this around and take hold of my health because at this point it’s definitely not just me wanting to look better or buy pretty clothes but my weight is at the point where it affects my health and my day to day life.

A few months ago I called to get life insurance. The representative I talked to asked me my weight and I said about 260. During that call she asked me at least three times if I was sure that I weighed 260. And I began to get offended and said yes and I was rounding up just to be sure. She then let me know that 260 is the cut off point and they don’t offer insurance to people who weigh more than that. My quote was so high I did not purchase insurance. How awful is it that I can’t get life insurance at my current weight or if it’s offered I can’t afford it?

It is customary to celebrate anniversaries, so today I’m going to celebrate mine at the gym! I can’t let myself turn 30 (in a year and a half) tiptoeing around 300 pounds. There’s no reason for my five foot five frame to be holding that much weight.

So today, I’m going to declare to do better. I will not be this heavy in two years. I will not be this heavy next year! I’m ready to get serious, because if I don’t get serious about changing my life then I am essentially giving up on myself and that’s not about to happen. One day obesity related diseases will not be a threat to me at all.

Cheers to my anniversary y’all! Celebrate with me by going out and burning some calories for me!

I have to add that I started a post that I was supposed to put up last Monday that said what I’ve been doing and where I revealed my weight. Logically it should have come before this post, but I couldn’t miss my anniversary! So look for me to update that post so I can let you all know what’s been going on in my little corner of this world annnnnnnnnnnnnndddddddddddddddd how much I weigh. Talk to you soon, have a great weekend!