Things just got real for me. I stepped on the scale this morning and put a number to my fears. The scale read 260.8. That’s quite terrifying and frankly hard to swallow, yet alone type.
It’s very disheartening to know with that number all the work I have done over the start of my journey has literally been done for nothing. My highest known weight was 262, which is only one tasty treat away. All the fighting and tears shed loosing over 40 pounds is all for nothing now. It’s a tough pill to swallow. None of that matters anymore. Now I am back to almost exactly where I started.
I knew I was gaining weight. I could lie to myself all I wanted but a closet full of clothing doesn’t all shrink at one time… I knew it was getting bad. I tried to get happy about every new clothing purchase I made, but the truth is a pretty new dress is no consolation for no longer being able to fit into the pretty dresses hanging in your closet. Shopping may be fun for most women, but for me clothing stores were the one place I couldn’t hide what I was doing to my body.
But now its become crucial. this number means so much more than anyone could ever know. 260? I was in the 260s when I realized my weight was really out of control and I had to get serious about it and then to let myself hit that mark again? What can I say? What is there to say? It’s time to stop saying and start doing.
I found a 7 day workout plan on Pinterest a week or so ago that I pinned and have been just looking at for a while. I thought it looks good, but now it’s time to put it to action. I started yesterday. The first exercise was 100 jumping jacks. You know I got winded by 14? Wow. That was shocking. I struggled through the whole thing but I finished. I completed everything on the list for Monday. I did omit the lunge split jumps because WTH is that anyways??? Lol. I think that is the only exercise I’m leery of. Well that and Saturday’s bird dogs. What?!?! That doesn’t sound enjoyable.
My goal to turn this whole thing around is to start with this plan for this week. And get at least a few miles in as well. I don;t want to put a number or timeline on things now but I want to just say that the upward climb of my weight MUST STOP NOW. I’m putting myself at risk of so many diseases and so many unnecessary challenges. And all why? Because I’m too
busy lazy to work out or I want to eat anything and everything that is placed in front of me?
I have to make the choice that I love myself more than that. I have to love myself enough to make time and properly care for my body. And that’s exactly what I’m going to do. I have to take advantage of this month or two when I’m not traveling every week and take care of my most prized possession.
- This week I WILL complete this 7 day regiment.
- I WILL plan my meals weekly.
- I WILL make juice at least twice a week.
This is my commitment to myself. Wish me luck!