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Superwoman

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I am not Superwoman, but isn’t that what I’m supposed to be?

Maybe it’s all in my head that I have to be stronger, smarter and tougher than the woman next to me. That’s what I try to live up to everyday. I can do by myself what any man, woman or couple can do… Perhaps that’s why I always feel like I’m failing.

It depends on why you ask, some people may not think I’m failing at all, but that’s far from the point. I hold myself to unrealistic expectations. I want to do well in school, work, life, spirituality, love, fitness, and finances. But last year I realized I can’t do it all. While trying to stick my hands in too many pots, it’s no wonder I get burned in a few of them. It feels as if I’m drowning and just can’t quite keep it all together.

So what’s the solution? STOP. Those simple four letters that are so easy to type but so difficult to execute. This year I want to take great risks and live life freely. I don’t want to be bound by my expectations of myself or expectations of anyone around me. I want to do things that move me, just for that simple reason and nothing more. I want to live life in color instead of the safe grayscale existence I’ve forced upon myself. I want to be beautiful, feel beautiful and live beautifully.

I’ve always loved the song Superwoman by Alicia Keys, but never quite examined the lyrics. Here’s the first verse…

Everywhere I’m turning

Nothing seems complete

I stand up and I’m searching

For the better part of me

I hang my head from sorrow

state of humanity

I wear it on my shoulders

Gotta find the strength in me

The song is actually about NOT being a superwoman by the traditional definition, but being exactly who you are and doing it gracefully. So I’m going to work on being more patient and kind with myself and accepting all my flaws as I would accept them in others. That is my task for this new year.

I teased one of my dear friends about her more than 25 revisions of a blog post that she recently shared with the world, but I can not tease her at all. I understand the difficulty in sharing the personal stuff that you don’t even share with your closest friends, but yet here it is up on the internet to be seen by any random passerby. I can not tease her at all because I originally wrote this on December 17th and have made various changes and shyed away from sharing this ever since then. But thank you for unknowingly helping me find the courage to put my words on this screen. Thank you for being brave ad showing me how perfectly imperfect a woman can be. You are a Superwoman.

For everyone that comes across this page, I hope that you become the best version of yourself, not just this year but for countless years to come. Happy New Year.

I was here

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This may not be my best from a writing standpoint, but I love this song. 

“I was here” September26, 2011

Inspiration strikes again by song. This time the song bird is Miss Beyoncé Knowles or should I say Mrs. Carter? This song brings so much inspiration to my whole life. I know health and weight loss is my main priority now but I do have a life outside of that. I pride myself on my volunteer efforts and I’ve always believed that helping someone else makes your own life that much more worth living.

When my time comes I want to be able to say I tried my hardest at all my dreams and never backed down from one of them. I know every dream isn’t meant to become reality but I want to make sure that doesn’t stop me from trying. And I would hope there is at least one person in this world that would be able to say that their world was better because I was there.

Check out the song and lyrics in the video below…

“I WAS HERE”

Inspiration strikes again by song. This time the song bird is Miss Beyoncé Knowles or should I say Mrs. Carter? This song brings so much inspiration to my whole life. I know health and weight loss is my main priority now but I do have a life outside of that. I pride myself on my volunteer efforts […]

“When it hurts so bad”

I love Lauryn Hill’s album, The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill. I am aware that I may be one of the few people that have this album on their current playlists, but if you haven’t heard it you just don’t know what you’re missing. I remember having this album on repeat during my 8th grade band trip. I don’t remember many details of the trip other than the dreadful dresses we were required to wear and listening to this album during the long bus ride. This particular song, “When it hurts so bad” from that album comes to mind…

When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why does it feel so good?…
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don’t catch it

Being a “closet romantic” these lyrics have multiple meanings for me, but only one is relevant to this post. I often find myself humming these lyrics after or during a demanding workout. And why do you ask? It’s the sweet burn of pushing your body farther than you thought it could go and then feeling the blissful sting of soreness as a reward for your hard work. And I know that may not sound like a desirable feeing to some, but if you are a person who loves exercise as much as I do I’m sure you understand exactly what I mean. I consulted with my doctor (WebMD) for their professional opinion on the issue and here’s what they said…

“Endorphins also trigger a positive feeling in the body, similar to that of morphine. For example, the feeling that follows a run or workout is often described as “euphoric.” That feeling, known as a “runner’s high,” can be accompanied by a positive and energizing outlook on life.”

For all of you that are addicted to exercise I’m sure you can more than understand the high it gives you. I believe people can get addicted to exercise but I think only rarely that becomes a bad thing. Out of all the things in this world people could be addicted to if they chose exercise I think that’s a pretty good decision. (Except if that addiction is along with some type of eating disorder. I do NOT promote unhealthy eating habits in any way.)

Have you ever felt the painful ecstasy of a good workout? There’s no time like the present so what are you waiting for? Join the club and feel the burn! Or if you are a heavy exerciser do you agree that it’s addictive? I know I’m addicted are you? Happy Friday y’all! Let’s make this a fun and active weekend.